Update.

Hola.

Okay, this blog is just for me.

I am a good person.

I love my life.

I am great at what I do.

I am happy, though sometimes I don't show it.

My life is fine, but it will get even better.

I surround myself only with good people who love me as I am.

If anyone has an issue with the way I look; they need to take it up with two people: God and my mother.

People may think that my being is an excuse to pour their failures and insecurities on me. Trust me, they need more than their junk to weigh me down.

Beauty is deceptive. Outer beauty hides pure ugliness whereas inner beauty will glow no matter what the package it comes in.

God (or whatever you wanna call him or it) may good for some things...but nothing beats good old fashioned common sense and reason.

Love is subjective. Love is cruel. Love is unkind...but it's still something we all want (myself included).

In closing...I <3 me...always.

Carlos J. Gonzalez

But, he homeless...

Hola everybody:

I post this blog with a very heavy heart in reporting that as a 'cub' reporter, I am now actually reporting from the trenches. Folks, this bear was forced to turn in his keys to his roommate and is now commonly known as 'undomeciled' or 'homeless'.

I would've never thought this could ever happen to me; a smart, relatively resourceful man with a biting sense of humor and plenty of lip. I guess once you realize the preciousness of what you have when you don't have it anymore: a warm bed, a television, light and electricity, a kitchen, a bathroom, a living room to entertain, internet access and yes, even scores of porn.

Am I asking why this is happening? No, not really. I have tried and am still trying to make a name for myself in the big bad city and I do believe in my heart of hearts that I will achieve that dream; but as always, there are hurdles, bumps, arrows and even bullets to dodge and sometimes they hit - and hard!

But, fret not. My spirit is not deterred, nor am I down in the dumps. This is just temporary and I know that once the job I seek is granted, my troubles will be over and I will have a roof over my head and finally the career. I want to thank each and every reader of my blog and hope that it continues to entertain, inform, challenge, or even make you gag. One can only hope!

Oh yeah and in rememberance:

9/11/2001